I do not know if it would be appropriate to call myself a lost soul right now. I want to do so many things and I just do not know how to start even one of them. I have so many plans but none of them have been realized yet. Darn. I am lost, indeed.
I was reading a book and analyzing some items there. I do understand the concepts and yet I cannot fully understand the items which I need to analyze. I am really a having a difficult time looking for answers. It's as if I could not complete the missing piece of a puzzle. I am just wondering why others could easily finish the puzzle and here I am, a lost soul. I do not know if the path I am taking right now were for me. I love what I am doing but it really irks me a lot when I cannot accomplish things like this. I'm good but I think I have to work on something in me that I cannot figure out yet. I would like to solicit a piece of advice from a former mentor this coming week. I need to find solution for this dilemma. I need to be enlightened as soon as possible. This drives me crazy and a little depressed.
In addition to this, I am still open for other "paths." I want to look for another career or profession but I do not want to leave my current profession. I just want something else to keep me busy with. I am thinking what profession would be suitable to me. I just hope I can find the answers eventually so that I can get out of this bleak state of mind.
its just... a little crush
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